Disappointing Days

Vacations are a funny thing. When school's about to end, you make all these plans. You promise everybody you meet, that you two will hang out during the break. You get excited, bubbly with the feeling of not having to study for a while. You imagine sleeping in late, not touching a book, and staying in your PJs all day long. You dream of doing daring, adventurous things. Meeting funny, sophisticated people. You spend your time trying to come up with all those creative classes you will take. Usually, none of this really happens. All that dreaming is wasted time.

Vacations are one of those things that you raise your expectations for, just to watch them crash back down. You expect to have this wonderful, adventurous break. You imagine all the new people you will meet, all the cool things you will do. In the end, none of this happens. Instead, you wake up at 8 because it's too hot to sleep. Then, you watch TV for a bit. You end up getting bored, so you talk to people you haven't for a while. This makes you feel so nostalgic, it physically hurts. You turn to your iPod for support, only to discover you want to start listening to new music. In the end, you really don't do anything with your day. 

Even with all of this nothing, you still don't want to go back to school. You never want to touch another book again, but there is holiday homework to do. You never want to wake up at 6 o'clock ever, ever again. Yet, that day is looming ahead. While you're thinking about all of this, that hateful day arrives. Those new pens, fresh notebooks, and the smell of new wood on you're pencil would be something to celebrate about, had they not been for school. You know those pens won't be writing whimsical thoughts, but hard core chemistry notes. Those notebooks will not hold thoughtful sketches or trying poems, but a list of vocabulary words to memorize. Those pencils will be blunt and used, not by marking your favorite passages on your favorite book but by drawing the insides of the human body. 

Sure, it's nice to see your friends after a long time. However, is that moment worth waking up early, getting yelled at by teachers, and staying up till the wee hours doing homework? I think not. Yet, you wouldn't want to die of boredom doing nothing during the holidays would you? School or no school,  I just can't seem to get a break.